Babble for the year...

Doubt -  "we accept the love we think we deserve" quoted from The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Things changes, people change and there is nothing anyone can do about it- sometimes they change for the good, sometimes bad and some change where the lasting effect is ignored and not seen, harming someone silently and ignorantly.
Worry - putting stress on yourself worrying about things, I have been worrying a lot recently. And worrying has a huge effect on the body, the mind, attitudes and almost everything even down to hygiene routines sometimes. Finance can be a worry for everybody and anybody, we all panic- is it through spending? Is it just that you have misplaced some cash? Eat a good breakfast, do all the can and chill. Worrying isn't something that will go away, best thing to do is talk about it with someone you trust, a cup of tea- it'll make you feel physically better. After all that searching, and no cash in sight- pop the kettle on and understand that there is no more you can do and hope an wish it will make its way back to you. Worry is a steaming cup of tea, taking a sip the boiling liquid burns your tongue- don't let that burn stop you drinking the rest.
Optimism - do any of us actually know what this means, s it us making plans for what we are going to accomplish or is it us defeating any hold backs and worries and achieving our aim. I feel better when I write things down, I like to see progress and steps, I do this to identify my own progress to allow myself to feel proud and getting closer and closer to that aim at the end of the tunnel, the things you desire so so much that the thought of not reaching it horrifies you. Go for it, you can only do it for yourself; and if you want something that much, you'll only make yourself proud.
Relax - "I tried carrying the weight of the world but I only have two hands" Avicii lyrics... We all need someone to make us feel worthy, loved, helpful, to give us confidence and the strength to follow any of our dreams. Do not waste time with friends that's how you nothing, those friends that use you, the friends that won't help you, listen to you, don't waste your time on keeping them happy because they wouldn't do the same for you. Those special bonds that you know are the people that will be friends forever, those that make you feel like they would do anything for you and that you could repay the favour, the ones that love you for who you are and not use you for your good nature; are the ones you can always depend on, never forget them. For a friendship is essential and those special bonds can be hard to find but once you have one, it'll be there forever. I see this lyric as a metaphor for a cry for help, the comfort in asking another for help and how much can be achieved. A relationship is not only those between a parent and yourself, but a bond of Trust and love building a system of comfort and confidence.